…still.and.will…
“I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” Psalm 27:13
“still” and “will”. two tiny words. such stature, such conviction. good ol webster likens “still” to “tenacious, stubborn, constant, continual, diligent.” they add pound upon pound of weight, yeah? morph the whole sentence. the sentence doesnt read “i am confident i might see . . . it doesnt allow this confidence to be one that is simply adopted, one that is acquired through birth, culture, or on a whim. it cant be one that is simply preserved because it is unchallenged, or because we have slaved away to build a numbing barricade between ourselves and the land of the living – convinced ourselves death exists only in campfire tales. “still” lends that this confidence has been tried by fire and the result is strength and refinement. it is not satisfied to wait around hoping that glimpses will be snatched if the waves arent too big, if people arent too human and nights arent too long. it says in spite of this flesh, in spite of this life I WILL FIGHT for this confidence because it lies in something bigger – in a taste my soul cant shake. i WILL be the hands of this confidence and i WILL be the roaming feet of it. this confidence serves to hold the frightened and nourish the sick, to dig the well and wrap the wound. it sits for hours over bottomless coffee cups and gushes at 70 mph over snaking asphalt. this cries out for help and runs richer than pride because it no longer believes it can be good enough – strong enough – capable enough. it giggles with the oppressed and dances unashamed with the broken because it is no longer afraid to live – this confidence is not bound by circumstances and is not as fragile as our bones. it became flesh, lived among us and conquered death
may the provision in salvation be seen in this life
*selah* nattie
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